OH GOD SEISHIROU/SUBARU OH GOD I SHIPPED IT SO MUCH I WANTED TO D I E
They’re completely totally entirely 100000% the reason why I love sociopathic murderers who fall in love and/or obsession with the heroes and emotionally destroy them and HAVE SEX WITH THEM AND KISS THEM O M F G
Also Marluxia/Namine from Kingdom Hearts screeeeeeeeeam THE FIC I READ
I don’t know, I just. Really, really, really love it from a narrative standpoint when protagonists and antagonists are equally matched and dark mirrors of each other, or complimentary in some way. And I love it even more when that translates into sexual tension and they have SO MUCH SEX. SO MUCH. EVERYWHERE. ALL DAY. And fall in twisted, possessive, co-dependent, “this makes sense to us but nobody else” love. That’s my favorite fictional dynamic ever tbqh. That and siblings. The best is when SIBLINGS ARE THE HERO/VILLAIN PAIRING but anyway
Yesssssss there’s nothing sweeter in life than meeting someone who not only adores the ladies as much as I do, but also understands my desperate, vital need for sexy fucked-up otps. It brings joy to my heart. THE BEST OF ALL THINGS.
OMG I HAVE SO MANY FEELINGS ABOUT HEROES AND VILLAINS, DESTROYING LIVES AND THEN HAVING SEX AND KISSING AND ALL THE RAZING THE EMOTIONAL LANDSCAPE TO THE GROUND.
Like, I totally get wanting to ship healthy ships! I have plenty of those, too, they are wonderful and build my heart back up when it’s ripped apart by the dark, fucked up ships. But I’m still going to gravitate to those fucked up pairings who are emotionally co-dependent on each other, who don’t see anything or anyone else in the world in the same clarity that they see the other, even if that means destroying themselves in the process.
Because Subaru couldn’t leave that relationship any more than Seishirou could, they were both twisted around each other and you couldn’t have one without the other. The core of both their characters was about the other, even Subaru’s friendship with Kamui wasn’t nearly enough to provide a stable support system for him, because Seishirou was E V E R Y T H I N G to him after Hokuto was gone. And that was so, so fucked up. But the narrative made it clear that it was mutually fucked up on both sides and, oh, that’s what made it so delicious.
And it’s even better when there’s hope for redemption, that maybe the villain might come around (if never being the same as they once were) or when maybe they’ll take the hero down with them, a matched pair in the darkness. I am not at all kidding about the number of dark!au fics I would read where the hero gives up the side of good to go be a tragic villain with their villain. (It’s harder to do, because what makes a good hero is that they never give up, that they have a strong moral compass, you often just have to go full au for it. But, when done right, it can be just as satisfying as a good redeemed!villain fic.)
I also just want so, so many fics about two people coming to the middle ground, to lay down their battle for a little while, to be with the other person. That the sex is all the more passionate and intense for all the complicated history there and how badly they want to be with that person.
It is SO SATISFYING to have a hero and a villain walk away together for a little while and shut out the rest of the world to just be together. As much as I love healthy ships in equal amounts, that is something they can never achieve the same meaning with.
Omfg so this. Just. This. I can’t help my feels for the messed up dysfunctional morally disturbed ships okay! I just can’t! Although I also go for the pairings where two broken characters match up together and somehow make a less broken whole. Or a more broken one. Whatever. I just like hot messes, okay.